Monday morning Breathing, Meditation & Gong session had just completed and, as is customary, Michelle closed with the following poem:
“My beloved child, break your heart no longer.
Each time you judge yourself, you break your own heart.
You stop feeding on the love which is the wellspring of your vitality.
The time has come.
And to see the goodness that you are.
You, my child, are divine.
You are pure.
You are sublimely free.
Let no one, no thing, no idea or ideal obstruct you.
If one comes, even in the name of ‘Truth’, forgive it for its unknowing.
Do not fight.
You are God in disguise and you are always perfectly safe.
Do not fight the dark. Just turn on the light.
Let go and breathe into the goodness that you are.”
~ Swami Kripalvanandaji (Bapuji)
Wow, “Each time you judge yourself, you break your own heart.”
That line really struck me! Not only does it mean judging myself is a complete put-down to who I am but a let-down to the whole purpose of living this life in human form. It’s an insult to life itself and a setup to failure. Why do we allow ourselves to get caught in this trap? We certainly didn’t come into this life with this self-degrading behavior. Our society is so critical it conditions us to be engaged in constant judgement, cluttering our minds with junk that doesn’t really matter. While our true nature is love, this means we have learned some seriously bad behaviors.
To go even further into what this line means to me, it also means I need to consider any judgement I may make of another as an immediate judgement upon myself – once again, breaking my own heart. Nobody is better or worse than the other. It takes a lot to see how we really are all connected in this life but we are. More importantly, how we each contribute to each other’s experience. Clearly, how we judge our experiences is based on our previous experiences, which doesn’t ultimately determine the outcome – although, the attitude does. The good or bad is only the perceived necessity to categorize everything in our life. We’re taught by family, in schools, and through socializing/group settings how to fit in and conform to what has assumably been laid out as our life. Who came up with this idea that we must belong to a group or measure up to some predefined ideal?
Each one of us is special so when we look at someone else and make a comparison, the same as a judgement, consider if you would appreciate the same in return and how you would feel because this is where we fall short. Whether your comparison is intended to lift you up by putting down another or is in jealousy of another by denigrating yourself with thoughts of not being good enough, you’re doing yourself a disservice. The Ego denies the Heart what is True!
Life is meant to be embraced with Love, lived fully, authentically, and with Integrity. The next time you catch yourself in a moment of judgement, reflect and ask yourself “who does this serve?”
This life is too short to be short-sighted and judgmental upon others or your Self! Be patient and kind ~ Start, most importantly, with that kindness extended to YOU! In the end, everything starts with Self and the more you work on You, others benefit.
Until next time, allow this day carry you through the Divine Flow of this Blessed Human experience!